Alright so, now that I’ve had a few hours to think about it,
I’m actually really interested in the facets of Dean’s personality that we got
to see tonight, particularly re: love and relationships. My initial response
was to kind of roll my eyes when Dean brings up Heather, because I assumed she
was the episode’s requisite “no homo” card.
I’ve seen every episode of this
show, most of them more than once, and I don’t remember ever seeing a hunter
named Heather. So, the more I thought about the idea that she was created
specifically for this episode, the more important she started to seem. Because
of that, I looked again at what Dean actually says about her:
My expectation was that Dean had contacted this girl and
arranged a meetup at the Roadhouse, but he immediately counters that idea. He
stops even though he knows she won’t be there, citing “good times” as the
reason. This alone is kind of strange to me, but particularly the idea that
Dean wanted to revisit one of his past hookups suggests that he isn’t satisfied
with random new girls. He spent the whole night in the bar and presumably had
multiple chances to leave with someone, but instead chooses not to. Why is it that strangers are no longer good enough for him?
His conversation with Sam in the Impala give us some insight.
And right there it is. Dean is asked about his romantic
goals for the first time in a long time, and though Sam presses, Dean continues
to brush him off, saying that neither of them have had much luck with
domesticity. At the time, I wondered why he didn’t answer, but looking back on
it, I think Dean’s answer actually came before the question, when he says:
He doesn’t say that he likes the one night stands, he just
says he’s lucky to get them. It’s that patented sense of Winchester Worthlessness
that leads to Dean denying what he desperately wants. Dean doesn’t think he’s
worthy of a real relationship, even though he clearly wants to connect with
someone he already likes. It’s Subconscious Desire 101. Dean Winchester wants a relationship, fucking fight me.
BECAUSE CAS ANSWERS “I’M HERE FOR YOU” TO DEAN’S EVERY “I NEED YOU”, AND THEY FIND ALL THEY’VE EVER WANTED IN EACH OTHER.
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still can’t believe they had dean go on some fuckin random ass case just so they could kill rudy just so they could no homo the fact that dean was super torn up about nearly killing cas
like lol when dean’s tellin sam later about how fucked up he is, he only mentions rudy. doesn’t even bring up cas. lol no homo cas doesn’t matter haha.
