I love you
I, who have seen your heart,
Every fiber that was put into your soul
I love you
I love you for every fault
Every disaster, every sin
I want to share every moment
Good, bad, high, low
I’ll take your anger
Your frustration, your disappointment
As long as I can hoard everything else:
Those rare grins you give when you find something amusing
The even rarer smiles when everything is right in the world for one irreplaceable moment
When you laugh at your own jokes, even if no one else does
That infuriating smirk you think is attractive but isn’t
(It’s beautiful, it’s all beautiful, you’re beautiful, and I wish you would hurry up and realize it because maybe then you would love yourself as much as I do)
You are my hope
My faith
The dream I never knew I had
All the pieces—messy and bent and cracked and perfect—that that form the person standing before me
I love them all
I only wish you loved me too
You leave empty cereal boxes in the kitchen cabinet
like the Romans left the ruins of ancient civilizations
to be clear
I am not one for sharing space
I am not one for silently whispering calculations under my breath, because I could have sworn that I had just bought milk the other day
and maybe that was once true
but that was before I met you
I’m sorry I don’t know how to curl around you at night
and that I shy away from well meaning words and fingers laced in mine
I’m sorry we are like re-runs of the same old 90’s crime shows that come on every night
and somewhere in between microscopic evidence and clever
we lost the plot
Forgive me
I am weak
I lean in to smell the flowers in your hair but leave as soon as you tug my hands, soft from lack of labor in yours, and dig them into the fresh soil
just because it makes you laugh
I’m sorry that the words catch in my throat
“I love you” is not what I feel
but it’s the only word I know for sharing space
not as smart as i think i am - Cristin O’Keefe Aptowicz
nickliminaj-deactivated20220723:
and miles to go before i sleep. -robert frost
b.e. fitzgerald (via crackademia)
This is so beautiful.
“…Let alone,
wear on my sleeve.”