Anonymous asked:
Rereading Foxfire Blossom! I've read it a few times a year every year since it's come out (5 years whaaat). I love all of the character profiles in this fic, it's one of my favorites in the world. (Especially Gabriel, that boy I swear.)

THIS IS PLEASING TO ME

that fic is always one i’m not really sure about, but i remain content to share it because people like yourself tell me you enjoy it, and that is SO affirming to me

thank youuuuu <3

fic link:

Foxfire Blossom (283k epic flower shop Destiel drama ft. Gabriel)

Anonymous asked:
I will love you longer than forever if you write more medical kink omg, it's a big favourite of mine and it's fairly lacking within the SPN fandom, so much so that I tend to read it with pairings i don't even ship just to read it aha

Anonymous said: i know this is a seeerious squick for many people but oh my god i loved you so much when you wrote some desperation kink into your fics (also in waw, sexual or not)… so if you ever write sth like that again you’ll definitely have a reader!!! wow i feel so dirty writing this im sorry

(in response to this)

eyyyyyy!!! good to know!!

i hope i can continue to satisfy you all! with a varied mixture of everything!!! kinky/non-kinky and sexual/non-sexual alike~ (e v e n t u a l l y because writing is a slow process jsfdf)

also i hereby encourage you to banish your dirty feeling, anon #2. you shouldn’t need to feel bad about your interests, y’know?~ you’re not alone, anyway.

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fic links:

Sexier Than Doctor Sexy (medical kink)

Foxfire Blossom (desperation kink; ch 11, 23 / not-quite-watersports; ch 19)

Welcome All Winchesters (non-sexual desperation)

Anonymous asked:
Hi! I love your writing because you always handle different kinks and being ace and/or on the autism spectrum so well. Being ace + having a kink myself it's really great to see myself respresented plus you somehow to handle all sexual experiences so well that even without the kink I see the appeal in it and it's always so sensual etc! I have a question too: do you plan on exploring any more new kinks or kinks you've already written but want to write again? Which ones?

eeee this question is exciting!! UMMM let’s see

firstly, yes, i will undoubtedly write new kinks in the future.

although i’ve looked lists of kinks for inspiration in the past, i’ve never found inspiration that way, i don’t think i’ve ever actually chosen a kink and decided “yes i’ll write this now”. usually i let a concept settle in my thoughts and it’ll pop up when i least expect it, while working on a new fic. (exactly what happened with dean’s thing for spanking in Welcome All Winchesters).

usually, when planning a story, the characters’ kinks and fetishes often just develop as the story develops, until revealing them becomes a natural progression of events. i construct the world around the plot, and the plot around whatever issues the characters need to confront. a kink is usually a way to strengthen the relationship or reveal new secrets, or get a character to open up.

i think i’m up for writing pretty much anything. bloodplay is one my squicks and yet i kind of write it a fluffy way in Manscaping?? i think the only thing i might avoid are hardcore violent things just because i’ve written graphic violence in the past (Angelhawke holy shit, Meg torturing Cas?? definitely sexually charged, and I don’t even think that was properly warned for. i need to re-read the fic and revise the warnings on that thing) and for the last few years i just… haven’t been in the mood for writing violence. i think i wrote all the anger out of me and now i’m just a fluffbunny.

i’ll most likely return comfortably to somnophilia, since i connect that with cas so much, and he’s my favourite to write, on par with dean. 

two others that do come to mind: choking/breathplay is one i also didn’t put into WAW despite planning to, but will probably try writing it in the semi-near future. also, if i did mpreg it would probably be in a non-kinky non-sexual way from the perspective of a trans character, so that doesn’t really count.

will almost certainly return to: medical kink (a la Sexier Than Doctor Sexy), animal roleplay/pet play (Dean Winchester the Puppydog), all kinds of variations on the “not gay but you’re weirdly hot”/”oh shit i have a boner for my nonbinary friend”/”no homo but do you wanna make out” tropes (Fight and Fool Around)… which aren’t really a kink but they’re the #1 thing that makes me flustered…. so…… yup.

i’ve written desperation kink/omorashi/not-quite-watersports in Foxfire Blossom (chapters 11, 19 & 23, if you’re curious) and there’s hiiiints of it in Welcome All Winchesters but it’s not written in a sexual way. i was originally planning a short ficlet about it, but it ended up merged with WAW instead - so maybe someday i’ll write another one? not sure. again, it’ll probably be mushed into a long fic, because it’s one of those things where a lot of people will not even want to understand unless they’re invested in the story. it’s always in people’s top 5 squicks, which is less than encouraging if i actually want people to read something with more depth beyond the kink.

things i’ve never been especially interested in include, firstly, a/b/o dynamics (i just don’t get the hype - this despite animal-type mating rituals & dominance being a thing i love dearly (Bad Things With You oh man this one needs some editing)). second: there’ll be hints or themes of bdsm in a few fics but i doubt i’ll ever write a bdsm-centric fic. (thinking about this some more, i might be saying this because i don’t yet have in mind a complete story with developed characters who share this interest, and i have next to zero interest in anything unless i’m invested in the characters. maybe someday i’ll find a place for it.)

tl;dr – yes, i will write nearly anything in the right context. hopefully i’ll be doing what i’m doing now for a long time in the future, and i’ll cover ALL the bases. slowly.

i hope that answers your question?

p.s. i’m more inclined to write a kink if i discover that one or many of my readers are interested in it, because i like to write for A Theoretical Person and if that person is one (or two) random follower(s) who’s into a tickle kink (you know who you are) then it kind of makes me want to write that thing more. *clears throat* Tickle Fight Wasteland *cough cough* (nobody asked for that. i just happened to provide.)

p.p.s. also. slightly off-topic. ages and ages ago i was researching some kink for some reason or another, and came across the term “CBT”. i googled it, got “cognitive behavioural therapy”. and i read that wiki page, and i was like… okay… there’s a kink for therapy… that’s cool. and i thought it was like a mind-control dominance/submission trust-building thing. and a few weeks ago someone on snapchat said they heartily recommended cognitive behavioural therapy to help with depression. and i was like, neat! kinky stuff has practical use in coping with mental health issues!! and literally just now i found a page calling CBT “cock and ball torture”. and now i feel like a fool, but omg i’m laughing BUT ALSO I cANnoT beLieVe– therapy kink. i genuinely thought people got off on talking about their feelings. (uh. that said… it still sounds legit. this is basically all my fics. oh shit it’s me)

deancasbigbang:

The DCBB now has official AO3 collections for each year the challenge has run. If you’ve participated in a past DCBB, please double check the year and feel free to add your fic and/or art to the corresponding collection.

2010 - thedcbb2010

2011 - thedcbb2011

2012 - thedcbb2012

2013 - thedcbb2013

2014 - thedcbb2014

2015 - thedcbb2015

2016 - thedcbb2016

Parent collection

Anonymous asked:
hey, i just wanted to thank you. it's been a year or so since i left the supernatural fandom, because it ended up being a really bad environment for me and reminds me of bad experiences, but i was talking with a friend tonight and they mentioned one of your fics, (roost, specifically) and we were discussing how much we both love your work and i'm just really overwhelmed right now thinking about how much your writing has impacted me. try something tuesday will always hold a special place (1/?)

in my heart as the fic i always reread when i was having a bad night or just wanted to remind myself that life isn’t always bad and thing will work out eventually. i read foxfire blossom downloaded on my computer at a camp where there were no other gay kids and i had no internet or cell service. it left me screaming into my pillow at two am and brought me so so much joy, not to mention how much it taught me (a young, impressionable child) about proper communication in relationships and how (2/?)

no matter how much it felt like i had to grow up and marry a man and have babies and be the perfect straight cis woman that society wanted of me, that didn’t have to be the end, and i could be in a gay relationship and still have a home and be happy. again, young, impressionable kid - the honest and real and beautiful way you wrote about lgbt people and the love we have for each other probably impacted me even more than i can tell. and hart of the storm. oh my god, hart of the storm. i have (3/?

no words to describe how much that story blew me away. it left me completely shaken and emotional and was one of the most powerful things i’ve ever read. i remember how excited i used to get when i got an email from ao3 that you’d posted something new. my time in the fandom coincided with a really rough period of my life, and to be completely honest, there were times when one of the only reasons i could think of to stay alive was that you were going to post a new fic soon, and i wanted to (4/?)

be able to read it. your writing brought light and hope to some of my darkest days, and it gave me something to look forward to when i felt like there was nothing left that could make me happy anymore. when i first figured out that i was autistic, and i went online and saw that you’d written fics with autistic cas, being able to have other experiences that i could relate to, in a format that i was able to understand, and by an author that i’d always admired, it helped me gain the confidence (5/?

to stim in front of my friends and explain to them why i sometimes had trouble speaking when it was too loud in the room and begin to learn how to work with my brain, and not against it. you and your writing have had such an incredible impact on my life, from the bottom of my heart, thank you for everything. (6/6)

//

this message has me shook, in the literal sense. i’m trembling. i just read this 10 times over. i have no words, friend. i can’t think past the haze of emotion to express how utterly i appreciate this and how much it means to me, and how much i want to never, ever, ever forget this message so i can remember it every. single. day. and use its power to keep going in my own fight, and always keep creating.

i’m so glad your friends are so understanding and accepting!! (you bonding over my stories is so cool to me??? so cool.)

this is gonna sound internet-person cliché, but sometimes it’s hard for me to visualise the folks who are reading my stories - i know whatever i say or share is impacting someone in some small way, but even the messages i get from friends are still pixels on a screen, y’know? i always feel kinda distant and removed from the people as opposed to the statistics, as much as i try not to be. but your words are so important to me, you are important to me, and i’m so utterly grateful you shared this ;u;

thank you for the honour of letting my stories help you, anon. i appreciate that you chose life, firstly, but i’m extra glad you used my upcoming works as an incentive. (even more reason for me to carry on writing, right? i may never know who’s counting on it.)

the fact you mentioned ‘hart of the storm’ is especially exciting to me, since that one is akin to the novel-like stories i dream of writing in the future, and i wasn’t really sure if many people liked it. it feels good to get some feedback.

i hope you find yourself on the path that’ll lead you to more happiness and healthy relationships with friends and fandoms. i wish good things your way, indefinitely ♥

//

(links to the Dean/Cas fics mentioned)

Anonymous asked:
Hey, just wanna say I love love love your writing, and this blog! Any idea when you'll be writing more? You're one of my favorite fic writers so I'm just curious, no rush! I hope you're having a fantastic day :)

keeperofcuriosthings said: Hey Elmie! I’ve just read “foxfire blossom” again, and I still love it! I just wanted to send you some love, and ask how you’re doing, after the whole gluten-intolerance-debacle? Hopefully better?

hello friends <3

as of right now? nope, nope, nopetty, nope. I have no idea when I’ll be well enough to write again. my health isn’t great at all, although I’ve definitely improved since a month ago. (I seriously cannot thank my new doctor enough. she’s actually listening to me, it’s incredible.)

I still need another few weeks, I think. maybe a month. or more. who knows. I’m trying to recover from a lifetime of malnutrition. I have to keep reminding myself that it’s okay to not be okay for a few months?? like jeez, I’ve been eating poison all my life without knowing. I can’t go around expecting to get back to writing novel-length stories after a quick nap. (I say that, but I’m still disappointed every time I wake up and I’m like dammit I still can’t see straight.)

on the upside, I have dozens of WIPs sitting ready to be finished, beta’d, illustrated, altered, or re-written. I’m so excited to post some of them eventually, especially the 112k+ Harry Potter/SPN crossover fic (called “How to Charm the Wizard of Your Dreams”), which is finished and beta’d. it’s ready for me to re-read and edit my betas’ comments, I just haven’t been able to go through it yet. but it’ll happen. 

s o o n.


Foxfire Blossom // my other fics ]

randomly out of nowhere, my Dean/Cas flower shop AU Foxfire Blossom hit 1000 kudos today!!!

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AND because I totally missed the moment when it happened, the two fics to previously join the 1000 kudos club were Hello Night (demon!Dean/priest!Cas) and Shadows Across the Camera Lens (underwear model!Dean/photographer!Cas)~

that makes 12 of my fics to have over 1000 kudos!! two of which have over 2000!!! SO MANY KUDOS OH JESUS SLIPPERY BUTTCAKES I LOVE YOU ALL THANK YOU SO MUCH

EVERY SINGLE KUDO STILL FEELS LIKE A HAPPY SURPRISE TO ME ISTG. I’M FOREVER SWOONING BECAUSE OF ALL THESE APPRECIATIVE BUTTON-PRESSINGS.

*whispers* next up to the 1000 kudos mark: Take You To The Country and Roost !! let’s friggin do this

Anonymous asked:
i just (finally) finished foxfire blossom. it was amazing! i'm just wondering, because this is what i thought was going to happen, was there ever a point when you were writing this where the ending happened like 'dean and sam have to move again, but this time they get to take cas with them, and cas legally changes his name.' just curious. have a nice day! can't wait to read your newest dcbb <3

I can’t say that ever did occur to me, since I planned the story assuming they might not have to move again. but I’m thinking about it now, and yeah, if they did move, they’d definitely take Cas. suffice to say, Cas would most likely take Dean’s last name. c:

I hope you have fun reading my new DCBB, as well~

[2013 DCBB: Foxfire Blossom // 2015 DCBB: Held in Your Tender Hands]

Anonymous asked:
hi, this the lonely anon who asked after your when your next fic might be posted! thanks for the reply. i just wanted you to know that i also enjoyed 'foxfire'- there's so much realism in it that i just don't find in other fics. i don't know why i find your fics so comforting, since the realism would go against the escapism that most seek but there's just something so /kind/ about what you write without it seeming condescending/naive. i will be watching out for 'sharing the rain dog'----

//clutches my heart

you used the word “kind” and I crumbled into a little bloopy pile of feels. thank you. kind is 90% of what I want to be in life, and if I somehow get that into my stories everything is perfect =u=

Sharing The Rain Dog is currently being edited (so it will be ready to be posted this coming Wednesday/Thursday), and I made some fanart for it. I think it’s one of my most favourite fanarts I’ve ever done, and I can’t wait to post it~! 

here’s a little teaser of the illustration:

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I’M VERY EXCITED \o/

[relevant fic link: Foxfire Blossom]

so snarkycap recced my fic Foxfire Blossom on their Dean/Cas fic rec a while ago, and goddamn the review is giving me emotions. I just wanna have it on my blog, because this kind of reader response is exactly what I need to look at when I need writerly reassurance.

Foxfire Blossom – E – 283,629
I have so many feelings about this fic. Let me start by saying it’s so raw. SO. RAW. The good, the bad, the ugly. Everything. I went into this fic thinking oh look! Cute florist AU! And I mean I had seen the warnings and I knew it was long (so I expected a ton of angst) but I was like whatever, I can handle it, how bad can it be? (Pro fic reader tip: Don’t ever ask that question!) Because, that was the wrong reaction to have. How do I explain this? I don’t even know – I have so many thoughts about this fic. Okay, well, first off, the characterizations – I was not familiar with. I read a lot of fics. I read A LOT of fics. Like, insanely a lot. This whole list is proof of that (sadly). I read dark fics, I read angst, I read fluff – but this? This was a completely new interpretation of my favorite characters for me. They were “in character” but Elmie explored sides of these characters that I hadn’t realized existed before. It was a glorious experience. The fic is sad all throughout, just saying. It has a happy ending, but there is always sadness underneath everything that happens. Also, lots of desperation on the reader’s part, because our favorite idiots live to give us pain. Duh. They are so slow to do things they should be doing. There are so many lies, so much betrayal, hurt, pain, and then some more lies. So many plot twists. Every other chapter I was like holy shit what? The ending nearly gave me a heart attack. I mean that’s how intense it was. But since we are all masochists, I know you will read this. Other notes: secondary characters were nicely integrated, and their back stories were well woven together. Everything was completely unexpected. The sex was so raw. SO RAW. Like the rest of the story. I mean, the way they talk to each other, the way things are described – usually it’s all rainbows and sunshine when Dean and Cas get together, or everything goes well, or like generally people don’t pay attention to realistic aspects of sex like hair/spit/saliva etc. Nope. This is all in there. This is everything. Sweat and tears and semen. No holding back. Ugly and pretty all meshed up together, like real life. This fic is so realistic in that aspect. Last note: there were so many things that surprised me in this fic, and some things I know I’ll never read about again. Nonetheless, it was a wild journey. Painful and always on the edge but wild and good. Insanely good. Please read it.

hi, I just finished "Foxfire Blossom" and I'm stunned. It is so well written and i fell in love with the setting and the characters I couldn't put it down. I hope you don't mind but i put it on my tumblr page under fic recs where i keep only a few fics that killed me the way yours did. don't ever stop writing- you have a true gift. thanks.

Gosh, thank you!! I just took a look (found it on the pop-up tab thing!) and oh boy, it’s right there next to those Destiel classics!! (none of which I have read but shhh)

And no, of course I don’t mind! Rec away, old bean!!! ♥

✿ fic link: Foxfire Blossom ✿

depraved-o:

AU request for stardustmote
Hey, so I was stalking your cockles tag (I'm low-key mad at you for making me ship them) and I saw (as I continued to hopefully not creepily stalk other parts of your blog) that you've written over a million words. That's so cool, congratulations!!! Also, Foxfire Blossom has been one of the most incredible fics I've ever read, and you seem like a truly great person (aside from our shared love of Destiel & Misha/Jensen)! Sorry if I rambled, but tank you for everything on your blog!

Making people ship Cockles… is unbelievably satisfying. ( ͡¬ ͜ʖ ͡¬)

Yup, over a million words of fanfic! My current word count is 1,477,937 - and that’s only counting the things posted on AO3, so it doesn’t include the several hundred thousand words of abandoned WIPs and things I’m still editing for later posting. I’m tentatively making it my goal to have 2 million words posted before the end of 2015~

And thank you!! I honestly never expected people to like Foxfire Blossom so much. I’ve had so much positive feedback on it - it posted something like 18 months ago and I still feel like stuff keeps happening to do with that fic. It’s kind of incredible, and I’m grateful <3 (*hugs you*)

[ links: Foxfire Blossom // all my works on AO3 (DeanCas) / my Cockles tag ]