okay so i already made this post about my jaxcon experience, but i wanted to make a separate post just about jensen because there is something about him that i never noticed watching him on film but in real life it was cuckoo bananas all right here we go~
when jensen came out on stage for the concert saturday night, he was not introduced, the song had already started, he didn’t say anything, he just busted through the curtain and grabbed the mic and immediately started singing. when there was a musical break, he left the stage (and took the mic with him, the only indication that he was coming back) and only returned when it was time to sing again, and when the song was over he disappeared and didn’t come back for the rest of the concert. he moved with such confidence and self-assuredness as if he knew that he owned the asses of every single person in the room. it was somewhat shocking because a) that’s definitely not how he used to act about singing in front of a crowd and b) all of the other actors at the convention seemed so approachable and chill and therefore jensen looking like a goddamn rockstar was a very stark contrast.
i didn’t really think much of it, though, until i was waiting in line for my cockles photo op. i was already in the room when jensen came in through the side door, and he just sort of……glided? or maybe it’s more of a stride? he walks with such purpose, like if i passed him on the street i would feel the need to get out of his way. again, let me reiterate: he came into the room like he owned the place.
now i’ve already explained that meeting misha just felt like meeting a dad, like i didn’t feel like i was meeting a famous person at all. but then i was face-to-face with jensen and i was like “oh shit this is a famous person.” he carries himself in such a way that you know that he knows exactly who he is and what he’s doing.
so this might sound like i think jensen is an arrogant prick, but that’s not what i’m saying at all. it IS intimidating to see such physical confidence, but it’s also enticing and intriguing. i know i’m being extremely cheesy, but i felt myself drawn to his poise and grace.
to be clear, i’m only talking in the physical sense now. i don’t think there’s a clumsy bone in jensen’s body. i don’t think he’s even aware that he has an unidentifiable physical quality that exclaims “i am an important person” when he walks into a room.
all of that being said, the second jensen opens his mouth all of the nonsense i’ve just explained disappears and he turns into an embarrassing nerd dad.