Let’s misbehave!
I know we’re all clowns but I’m gonna lead the circus because THE WAY DEAN SAID “OF COURSE I FORGIVE YOU” like it was a given “of course I forgive you, how could I not?” “of course I forgive you, I’m Dean and you’re Cas there’s no other option” physically hurts my soul. ALSO WHEN HE SAYS “YOU DID IT CAS YOU DID IT” like he KNOWS Cas got the blossom and he validated him and shows him he’s proud I’m a mess
So that prayer was truly amazing.
They were filling in a fanfiction gap themselves, giving us a glimpse of just how raw those prayers of Dean’s could have been, would have been, all those months he’d spent searching for Cas in Purgatory. Jensen didn’t have to go that hard but he did, giving us a Dean thrust headfirst back into one of his worst nightmares, desperate not to lose Cas, terrified he’d be forced to leave him behind again. We don’t ever see Dean open himself up like THAT but he DID and he did while repeating, almost a prayer itself, “I hope you can hear me, I hope you can hear me…” He wanted to be heard. He wanted Cas to know.
And then Cas says “I heard your prayer” and it’s like thank GOD but at the same time what were you going to say, Dean? And my thoughts keep returning to that Dabb interview that came out today where he said that the emotional issues between them would not be entirely resolved in this episode… for all intents and purposes, from a GA perspective, they WERE. The ongoing fight from the end of season 14, the complications added to it earlier this season, they were addressed, apologized for, resolved, finally. In every scene following their return from Purgatory they were very much in sync, from crafting the spell together to their body language when they spoke to Sam in the final scene. They finished each other’s sentences! They’re back. They’re a unit. They are on the same team, and they’re so good together. And yet… they were sitting in silence. They still weren’t talking to each other.
There is still more to say.
I am really really really really glad that Castiel isn’t putting up with Dean’s passive-aggressive pushing the blame bullshit, even if it took way too long to do it. I am so happy to see him standing up for himself and not having to repeat apologies, both deserved and unwarranted, ad infinitum until Dean isn’t mad anymore. I’m glad the show is calling Dean out on that character flaw after all this time. I’m enjoying the characters having to actually face up to their shitty behaviors.
15x09//The Trap
See the thing is though… Dean knows Cas could hear the apology. He knows Cas can hear prayers. The reason he thought Cas couldn’t hear him was because he was scared Cas was dead.
I don’t think he was going to repeat himself.
So… what was he going to say?
#who….. in the history of television….. fell on tHEIR KNEES…… and cried over their buddy pal bff #deancas #spn (tags via freckles-and-wings)
my roommate just made me realize that the leviathan blossom was a lil smushed because Dean hugged Cas before Cas could tell him about it and that’s such a little detail but I’m on the verge of tears again over it
also on the verge of laughter bc i can imagine them hugging and dean raising his eyebrows like ‘is that a leviathan blossom in your pocket or are you just happy to see me’ i’ll let myself out I am Sorry