i hadn’t checked my inbox in two weeks but i just did and i find this
at this point i’m double-triple-quadruple checking your blog and the links between your blog and your other blog and googling to make ABSOLUTELY SURE YOU’RE THE PERSON I THINK YOU ARE because this seems just so wildly unbelievable to me (in a good way)
like ARE YOU KIDDING ME
FRIEND I’VE FOLLOWED YOU ON EVERY BLOG YOU’VE EVER HAD WHEN YOU WERE @EUCLASE EXCEPT YOU KEEP CHANGING THEM AND DELETING THEM SO I PROBABLY MISSED SOME
I LOVE YOUR ART AND YOUR OPINIONS AND I WILL SUPPORT YOU FOREVER
when i wrote my first dean/cas fic Angelhawke and the dcbb was open to artists i came and asked you if you wanted to sign up to illustrate my fic because it was based on one of your favourite movies and your art was The Literal Best Ever but you said you were too busy and i was like “cool that’s understandable” BUT THEN FIVE YEARS LATER YOU’RE FANGIRLING???? over me following your inspiration/personal blog???
excuse me 1 sec i need to lie down and stare at the ceiling
omfg. i just went through my emails from 2012 and i …i kept a running email commentary to my friend as i freaked out about asking you???
hang on i gotta paste it here ‘cause it’s kind of hilarious
me:
email title: “so I had a revelation”
I googled “euclase ladyhawke” and even though she deleted the post, I found reblogs.
She does indeed like Ladyhawke
I’m shaking as I type this
Okay the revelation:
she does artwork
I do story
DCBB art signups start right after drafts are due
I was going to message her after it was published
but then I realised
she might be interested in illustrating
so
I was going to ask you right now if I should message her
and then I noticed how stupid a question that would be
because of course you’re going to say yes
So
I’m going to write a message now
and show you what I sent her
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So, I’ve been informed that one of your favourite movies is Ladyhawke. And I know for a fact you love Destiel. This years’ Dean-Cas Big Bang is going to include the fic I’m writing. It’s called ‘Angelhawke’. It’s 400,000 words long. I know it’s forward of me, but, would you be interested in illustrating? I thought I should pounce on the opportunity to ask, because artist sign-ups are in a couple of days. (P.S. Your art is absolutely exquisite.)
to euclase, 13/08/12 04:24pm
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WHAT DID I JUST DO
OH CRAP
/deep breathing
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HOLY CRAP
ASH
WHAT IF SHE SAYS YES
WHAT IF SHE SAYS YES, ASH
WHAT THE FUCK WOULD I DO THEN
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(And then I realised that artist sign-ups are already open, and they actually /close/ in a couple of days - and apologies if I look like I’m pressuring you now. D:)
to euclase, 13/08/12 04:40pm
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help me help me help me help me
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shiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiit why CAN’T I FACT-CHECK BEFORE SENDING MESSAGES
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I AM PANICKING
ABOUT THE DEADLINE
AGAIN
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I CAN DO IT I CAN DO IT
I stood in the kitchen and paced while my food was warming up
and I can do it
i can do it
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LOOK AT THIS
look how nice she is
oh my god
euclase: (2012-08-13 17:02)
I don’t have time. :(
But oh my god, I’m so flattered. Thank you for thinking of me! It sounds wonderful. Maybe I can draw a little something independently at some point (provided there’s no risk of stomping on the work of the artist who claims your story, of course). My schedule is unpredictable, or I’d definitely consider it. <3
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My reply:
Yes, I did think that might be the case :c But never fear, I look forward to anything even remotely scrappy you might endeavour to throw my way. Even blinking at it would make it better. I’ll let you know when it’s published <3 Thank you so much anyway! Don’t stop being awesome~
ANYWAY MY POINT IS I’VE LOVED YOU FOR A V LONG TIME AND I ACTUALLY HAD NO FREAKING IDEA YOU’D EVER READ A SINGLE ONE OF MY FICS UNTIL THIS EXACT MOMENT WHEN I JUST DISCOVERED YOU LEFT KUDOS ON A COUPLE OF THEM
and apparently feel like fangirling over me
holy shit
hi new friend
;u;
I CANNOT BELIEVE
I’M DYING LMAO
Oh my god I don’t know if I should be embarrassed or just… jumping around with joy. This is like fairytale level plot twist. You’ve been one of my favorite writers for a very long time. I think I must have just not realized who’d messaged me.
