1. You like your coffee black, with just a sprinkle of sugar. No cream. Once you tried drinking a blend from India I found at the supermarket, but you told me that you preferred your coffee to have grits, thick and dark that coat the back of your throat when they go down. So I took the cup for myself and made you a pot of Folgers.

2. When you read, and are entranced by the words, your eyebrows scrunch together like the back of a caterpillar and you always rest your hand on your chin.

3. When you read you have a tendency to fall asleep and drool on the pages. I can’t tell you how many books in the Bunker’s library I’ve had to wipe drool off of or rip out ruined pages because of your spit. It’s a good thing I adore you.

4. You usually sleep on your back, it’s easier to defend yourself if you are attacked that way. But with me you sleep on your stomach, or curled up against my chest, breath warm on my neck. I like that you are comfortable with me. I know how hard it is for you to let yourself go.

5. The brief moments you do let yourself go are rare. I cherish them.

6. You always say my name when you come.

7. You are fascinated with my hands, all the things they can do, have done, and will do. I love when you kiss my fingertips.

8. You get this look of unfettered joy on your face whenever you cook for Sam and I. I don’t know if this joy is because you are happy doing something for us, or you simply enjoy the routine activity. I haven’t asked and I won’t, as long as you are doing something that makes you happy I don’t care the reason.

9. You love your brother with every fiber of your being; you love me with your entire soul. I often wonder how you manage to love the both of us and have any love left.

10. You love without reserve, and so do I. How could I not?

11. You only stay in hotels that cost less than $69 dollars a night. It was an inside joke between you and Sam for years until I finally understood.

12. You make a lot of jokes, some are funny and some really aren’t. I laugh at them all.

13. You hate cherry pie. I’m still shocked about this one.

14. You won’t eat apples but you will eat an entire apple pie if given the chance. I will never understand the difference, it’s all apples to me.

15. You love all Impalas before 1967, but hate all the ones that came after. “Copycats,” you called them. I can’t say I blame you.

16. You’re proud of Sam for graduating college this summer. You cried at the ceremony. I did too.

17. You love sacrilege and angels. I think that’s partly why you married me.

18. Sometime after Purgatory you told me you hated Bed & Breakfast places. “Too frilly, and too honeymoon-y,” is what you said. But somehow I managed to convince you to stay in one on our wedding night. I didn’t hear any complaints, so I am starting to doubt that you hate them as much as you say you do.

19. You cried the first time we had sex, burying your head in the pillow and hiding your tear-stained face from my eyes. The Mark burned on your arm, and I cradled your head in my hands. Later you told me it was the first time you had felt anything in over a year and I vowed to make sure you would never have to suffer again. I think I succeeded.

20. Tomorrow is our first anniversary and you are finally at peace. You are currently curled up in our bed, hands splayed wide and relaxed on the pillow, even in your sleep reaching for me.

21. You don’t say “I love you,” often, but you don’t need to. Every caress of your hands, touch of your mouth, and crinkly-eyed smile is all the “I love you,” I need.

Well , I dont think this was quite like the crypt scene. Like when Dean said “We need you , I need you.” 

That’s what broke the connection there , we all know that…

But what broke the connection vice versa?
 I don’t think just one thing broke it. Cas told Dean , that he’d be the only one left standing when no one else would be around. He’d stay with Dean through thick and thin basically. 

All the touching in these scenes.

This is what I believe made Dean’s mind start to clear. In the second gif you see he looks at Cas’ hand on his shoulder as if to be like “Oh i can really feel that.” They rarely ever make contact anymore. So I guess Dean was somewhat shocked at the touch.

Then he gives Castiel this look. He does look somewhat offended which is why i believe Cas took his hand away to begin with. or maybe Cas felt to awkward about it and thought it was better for him not to touch Dean while they were speaking.

Then again. Stopping him from leaving.

The fighting starts soon after that because Castiel refuses to let Dean leave because he wasn’t him to understand that He and Sam are just trying to help.But Dean doesn’t want to listen , stubborn as always. But Castiel refuses to hurt Dean in anyway.

So Dean makes his own mind up and starts taking his anger out on Cas. I believe he did this because he was hurt.Hurt that Cas sided with Sam in betraying Dean; Lying to him.

We can literally see the rage as Dean pretty much beats the crap outta Cas. Note that Cas isnt fighting back. He’s and Angel. He has his grace back , he could hurt Dean , but he doesn’t want to. He put his heart out there for Dean to see but got it stepped (More like Stomped) on.

Dean Beats Cas until he’s barley able to move.

And Has him on the ground , Grabs him and is ready to strike. But Castiel grabs his wrist and pleads. Well that’s not the correct term for it but that’s what im gonna use. When He says “Dean,Please” It’s not ‘please stop’ or ‘please don’t do this’ It’s ‘Dean Please see this is wrong and you’ll regret it, I was only doing what I thought was right. Trying to save you.’ 
When Cas Grabs Deans wrist and looks at Dean and said those words it breaks him , the connection. Much like when Dean said “I need you” 
Right then you can see Dean process this.

The MOC is trying to take over , but he isn’t letting it.His hand is shaking , he’s holding back so much. Yes he is furious , but only because of betrayal. Which in turn is Sams fault for asking Cas to lie. So he makes his decision right then , to kill or not to kill. He loves Cas. Castiel loves him.This is when he realizes that. Cas’ heart to heart with him was His confirmation for Castiel’s feelings towards him. So he strikes.

Everyone’s heart dropped here , we didn’t see a flash of grace , a noise. Nothing. His decision was to not kill Cas but if he didn’t do something with that angel blade , i’m afraid of what he might’ve done.

.We get this sigh of relief , but the pain in Castiel’s eyes really hurt. He thought the end result of what he said would have been different than getting the crap beat out of you by someone you love.
  So what do i think really broke the connection?
I think it was The talk , the touch to the wrist and Cas saying “Please , Dean” And I think it was Deans love for him. Not much was said , but a lot was said between the lines.
Cas didn’t even fight back.He wasn’t gonna hurt Dean.I have a feeling he knew Dean wasn’t going to kill him..
So , those are my thoughts , you guys can add to this if you’d like.