luvscissors73:

heracratzarism:

#this makes me think of teenage Dean #on a hunt with his father #but John told him to be a look out and then wandered off #now Dean hears a noise in the woods #and he’s realizing that John left him to be bait (x)

THOSE TAGS

selfihauntyouithink:

lookatthesefreakinghipsters:

magical-muser:

yourfavoritedirector:

Guess what? I quit.

Supernatural 10.03 Soul Survivor: Sneak Peak [x]

This is so exciting!!  I’ve always been fascinated by the way that Dean resented his father for how he raised them, but had repressed that anger and bitterness and that we’ve only ever seen glimpses of his true feelings through his proxies, such as shifter!Dean, Dream!Dean in 3x10, and so on (check out this great post by subjecttochange8 for more on the topic).  Except that demon!Dean isn’t really a proxy, he’s Dean, but is now capable of letting go of all that guilt and repression that have built up over the years, which reached toxic levels.  So now we’re finally clearly seeing how Dean really feels about John, his true resentfulness and anger at the damage that John did as a father.  Because he doesn’t care about the guilt, or about John,  or about Sam, or about being repressed.  He’s known, on some level, that what he went through wasn’t fair, but now he’s able to actually articulate it.  Which is amazing.  

#demon!Dean#is a healthier Dean#than the Dean we’ve come to know all these years#for he’s finally recognizing and doing something about#*his* needs#or at least trying to figure out what those needs are#without family obligations weighing him down (via)

zhgirlonfire:

Ok fine, you win. John was an asshole

sam-dean-sam-and-dean:

ohmy-beautiful-idiot:

so the demon was too nice to be John…

the awkward moment when the demon who killed your family is nicer than your own father

(about this)

Dean knowing how to sew is my favourite thing. And he would know, because he’s gotta fix up injuries and clothes and bags and stitch all kinds of shit together. so it’s no great leap to say he did a little embroidery one time for fun, right?? yeah. and made a batman costume from scratch. =u=

p.s. Dean lying there on his front and wincing at the tattoo needle’s buzz and just grinning at the floor ‘cause hell yeah, he’s batass.

#and you can just tell from that look on his face that he’s thinking #’it was always me. #i’m the disappointment. #i was never smart enough or fast enough or brave enough. #i didn’t protect you when i was supposed to. #i didn’t follow orders. #i let you out of my sight and you ran away. #i’m the bad son. #you’ll always be his favorite.’ #FUCK THIS SHOW #to me you are perfect

boazpriestly:

AU where John encourages Dean to follow his passions. 

“Look at this one,” Dean says, scrolling through his camera. “I got you mid run. Really clear too." 

John smiles, “They’re great, Dean. You gonna send them out this time?” 

Dean gives a nervous chuckle and chews on his bottom lip. “I don’t know. I mean, it’s just a hobby. Nothing special, you know.” 

"Just a hobby you’ve been doing since you there five,” John says. He shifts his weight and moves closer to Dean, getting a better look at Dean’s most recent pictures as Dean continues to flip through them. Dean stops on one of Sam staring out the back seat window as traces the tail of a rain droplet sliding down the glass; the scene is peaceful, almost ethereal.

John hadn’t understood Dean’s fascination with the camera when he was younger, he’d even tried to talk Dean into join sports or help him fix cars (which he took to when he was sixteen), but all Dean had wanted to do was capture the moments around him. His face was always fixed into a constant frown whenever he couldn’t carry around Mary’s old camera. So John, sick of seeing his boy so unhappy. bought Dean the best camera he could afford and gave it to him for his fifth birthday. And god, it was worth it to see the smile that lit of his face and never quite left even after twenty years. 

“If you could see what I see whenever you use that thing,” John said softly, “You’d know that this is what you’re meant to do, Dean. Fixing cars is your hobby, kid. But this…” Dean turns to look at John. He swallows hard, still worrying at his lip. John smiles again. “Send out the pictures, son." 

"What if they’re not good enough?" 

"They are, Dean. They always have been." 

obsessionisaperfume:

yaelstiel:

theonceandfuturedollop:

yaelstiel:

(1.03  1.11  3.02  4.15  8.11  8.18  9.06  9.07)

Sometimes, one good word can change the world 

↳ Dean Winchester Guide to Encouragement. 

For Larissa  (◕‿◕✿)

he would be such a good dad unlike his *cries*

I think a major part of this, is that Dean had Sam as someone to take care of, and learn how to take care (even if from scratch, and I am NOT romanticizing Dean child-parenting) John was a lonely child to a father that disappear, he grew alone, probably (don’t remember canon about this) with a mother that took care of him and maybe over protective, but he never knew what it is to really take care of someone, so when he was left alone after the fire, he did the best he could, what he thought is better. 

Should he do better? sure. Is he responsible for most part of the boys trauma and mental issues? yes. Can I look at him and find in me some compassion? yes. 

John Winchester was a human being, a flawed one, his father (in his eyes) abandoned him, his wife burned on the ceiling, he got obsessed, he couldn’t see past revenge, he forgot he had children to feed and protect and care, but John after Mary’s death was a broken man. and I am sad for him, I really am. 

I am angry with him as well. But I think after a long while I came to find a place in me that can see what happened to him. and this is tragic 

(again, not excusing any of his wrongs, but I think it’s important, it is important for Dean too, because Dean loved his father, and if he will need to think of him as a villain, it’s like the ground will crumble beneath him. He will need to get angry, of course, for a while, but later on (and only after the real anger)  to come to an understanding, he should’ve done better, but he did the best he could. 

This is twice important when Dean will look at himself when he is human again, Dean, with his already self-loathing, will need to recognize this, you should’ve done better, but due to circumstances, life and trauma, apparently you couldn’t. and unlike John, which is dead, Dean will be able to continue this statement with : but now you can. 

THANK YOU.

I like sub!Dean for essentially the same reasons as you said. I like the someone-taking-care-of-Dean aspect to it, and him allowing himself to let go for a little while, and trust someone without fear of being thrown away, and for him to not feel bad for wanting things. I also just enjoy the sexiness of it, I can’t really explain why a subby Dean makes me feel sparkly inside.

For the record, the following are not reasons I like sub!Dean: John Winchester trained him that way. He prefers being passive/tied up during sex. He’s a pushover. He likes being hurt. (The list goes on.)

When I think of sub!Dean, I think of something very emotionally positive, and something that makes Dean happy, and feel good about himself. Not something where he endangers himself, or lets someone else hurt him. Those more negative things can be part of Dean’s experience, as well as the D/s community and background (I am paraphrasing grossly, the D/s dynamic is far more complicated), but they aren’t part of what I personally enjoy for sub!Dean. Everyone’s entitled to their own interpretations, and this is mine.

(Thank you for asking, anon~)