deanandhiscas:

HOHOHOLY SHIT okay, lemme tell you. I am a wreck. Every time I think about it I burst into tears.

Okay so you know how Jensen very, very rarely personalizes his autographs, right? Well I’m next in line and the volunteer unrolls my painting and kind of makes a face, because I’m assuming she’s not a shipper. So I quickly tell her that if he’s not comfortable signing it then I have something else he can sign instead, so she nods.

It’s my turn, so she slides it over to him, all rolled up, and he says hi, and immediately I start apologizing for the Cockles op (which I’m posting after this) and apologizing for the stupid hats, and he waves it off and I’m like okay, good, it wasn’t as big of a problem as I thought it was. And so he unrolls it…. and starts giggling. That laugh thing he does usually following him saying “what?!” And I give him the whole spiel about how I have something else he can sign if he doesn’t want to sign this, but that I just really wanted to get some of my art signed, and this is the only thing I had that I’m kind of proud of right now. And he’s not really saying anything, he’s still looking at it…and by this point this has been going on for a lot longer than the other autographs did, so I’m getting a little anxious about taking up a lot of time. And the volunteer asks him if he wants to switch out the painting for the other thing (my photo with him) and immediately he’s like “Nonononono” and he uncaps his sharpie. And I swear to god, he started printing, not signing, and my heart stopped.  Because I KNOW he and Jared don’t personalize things, and try to get the autographs done quickly and efficiently. But here he is, WRITING SOMETHING. ON MY (RATHER SHIP-HEAVY) PAINTING. And he signs it, then stops to admire his handiwork, and he unrolls the top of the painting a bit more, and that’s when the volunteer sees what Misha wrote on it yesterday. So she starts chuckling and she points it out to him, and he has this shit-eating grin on his face and he’s like “Yea, I know. ‘Come fly with me!’ So I wrote, ‘My feet are stuck!’” and he’s still giggling and I’m on the verge of tears and I thank him profusely and he smiles, and I’m just done for.

And okay, in my painting, Dean’s feet are off the canvas so I obviously didn’t paint them and I thought that’s what he was referring to. My brain was still processing the fact that he personalized it so I didn’t fully get why he wrote what he did. So later I’m standing in line for Jared’s autograph, and Laura finally gets it and she comes running up to me and she’s like “Anika. Okay. Don’t panic, but…” and she proceeds to explain that he was writing that in response to what Misha said. And I burst into tears all over again. 

And then later I came to the full realization that he’d meant it as,

Misha: “Come fly with me!”

Jensen: “I can’t, because my feet are stuck!” (because they weren’t in the painting) and oh my god what a NERD

I’M JUST

I’M NOT OKAY.